Liu liu do not feel so sad about it, anyhow she is the mum. I guess we have very similar types of mums. I called my mum last night and talked anout this issue. I told her please do not use the same way to educate my future children as the way she used to educate me.
When I was young my mum always told me I need to study hard, need to be the best and she will only be pround of me in this way, which really put me down. I used to be pretty good at studyimg in primary school, as time passed, the more she told me the less I like to study. The concequence was I could not obtain enough scores to get into a so called " Zhong Dian"high school. I went to normal hight school for a year. Then my mum used all her social connection and paid money to bring me back to the Zhong Dian school. I stayed there for another tow years, I felt desperated druing that two years, life was miserable. I could not study, 早恋, skip the classes, etc.
Last night I told her that was the very bad two years in my life so far. I was so unhappy while did not dare to share any of my teenage thoughts with her. Even now, I still choose not to tell her too much about myself, because I am scared. Yes I am scared to tell her. My last relattion ship, he was more than ten years older than me, I was so enjoyed to be with him, because I felt that I could acting like a young girl which I never did in front of my parents (and other people) as they told me not be childish.
This kind of topic I got so much to say but now I still decide to go back live with them as I knew whatever they have done can not be simply judged by right or wrong, and I want to make them feel happy if my surrounding can help.
Hate my working PC, can not type Chinese .
