very well written ...
I hope you get out of the predicament soon. love is like a flower, it is beatiful when it's young and blossoming. But it does not last. when the season is over, you expect some fruits. I guess I am trying to say: no one is worth a wait, life is too short for it. go outdoors, meet someone new, you will find your love, not someone who will treat you as a backup option.